What A Glorious Feeling!

I'm officially not a winter person.Summer is my season: that time when I can go out anytime and have a walk. A lizard may be warmer-blooded than I am. I can't go on without my share of sunshine, and that's partly why winter comes and ruins all my sunny plans.

Now, when I say winter, I can't help thinking about snow, and a winter wonderland, gloves, scarves, boots... I shouldn't really call "winter" the "tropical winter"... How confusing... However, since nobody non-tropical reads me, I think I can afford to say it instead of calling it "the rainy season".

Until now, I've been talking cr@p. That's the only truth. I've been saying what they've made me believe was my own feeling. My whole family is composed by summer-lovers, but I must say that the winter appeals me terribly.

Do I really love the summer as much as I say I do? Nah. Rain has that something about it... (I bet everybody reading right now must be thinking "Jesus Christ... Talking 'bout rain, again?", but believe me, I could go on forever.)

Anyway, as I was saying. Rain.

Whenever it is raining, I get the urge to get out. Every single time. It doesn't matter if I'm wearing a bathing suit, a tux, if I'm naked. I simply need to get out. I may be walking down the street, or all nice and cuddly in my bed, but the thing is: Nothing feels better than feeling warm after being out on the rain (not even being warm to begin with).

Reasons why I don't do it? First of all, my family would confirm I'm slightly mad (they already suspect it). And second -and most important- I don't like that warm feeling by myself. It's pathetic, like triggering the usual loneliness feeling, having 50% of what would be the greatest evening of your life, lacking only... Well, lacking only somebody to spend it with. Anything more pathetic? Don't think so.

Why did I come all this way just to say I've been feeling pathetic lately? Dunno. Perhaps -just maybe -only possible- not even probable--- I feel it's even more pathetic to admit it...

And why in English? After all the &%$% I said today, God forgive me if I had let go to waste 13 years of this...